A Poem out of Love enlightening feminity into this World.
The Feminine Dairy by Vivek Shaw
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“I” am in a Feminine Boat,
Holding closed eyes dreaming with hope,
The energy of life is breeding me into this,
a new form, a new life, past a turtle to now a fish;
“I” am in a body of a little girl,
waiting for my growth, as per my given oath,
this fur is feeding me, as if someone’s greeting me,
whispering “you are almost there” with a sweetest voice of care;
Th voice of care which i really feel connected with;
nourishing me to break all my bindings off of my past life myth,
Yes this is it ! Yes this is “Her”,
not just a pack of fur; but a womb of my mother !
My mother of this life,
who played many roles of a woman & wife,
This is my mother, this is my mother !
I am starting to observe,
I am able to see;
they’re all excited out there to see little cute me,
to hold me in their hands, to change my paddy pants,
to free me out of this womb & see me smiling !
Oh god ! I am waiting, for their beating,
for their greeting, for every shine they’re gonna show me,
for every second they’re gonna owe me,
and finally, the day arrived !
(Born)
It felt as if someone pulled me into the God’s light,
cooler than winter, the light unbearably bright,
I felt like some pain and anger,
I started ‘crying’ sensing some danger,
some hands then pampered me, covered me with a cloth,
they made me sleep on a smooth surface of a wall just like a moth;
I woke up and someone’s talking to me,
their words are glowing and playing with me,
This is ‘HIM’ my father, sharing love to his daughter,
His daughter who just stepped into this world,
for whom he can go against this whole world !
My hero, my protector,
stronger than those hands that pampered me,
kisses me in my forehead and slightly gave a smile at me,
with tears of joy breaking out from his eyes,
as if hands of a giant holding a new born mice;
They took me home, my home where I’ll grow up,
where my world will change, my naughtiness may show up;
(Daughter)
“I” am a daughter now, also a sibling here,
a naughty devil playing every moment with no fear,
my family has taught me many things growing old;
today i am a small girl showering happiness being bold;
My dadda is my hero, my maa is my queen !
My brother is so silly, trust me i am not being actually mean !
Me and my brada, we play, we laugh, we fight with eachother;
but every time my envy wins when i complain to our mother !
I am glad to be here today,
Thanking this universe for this pleasant day;
where again i am given a chance to learn something,
To gain something out of doing nothing,
my power of doing nothing deserves a small line,
Because that’s the only possession of power for now which is mine.
“I” am in a school now, working as a student there,
byharding some topics and noting down in my fair,
Despite of hating doing homework,
I am glad for this education,
Because, my new role here has started..
my role as a friend,
which will always be a trend,
this trend is always irreplaceable,
like cheating in exams that too untracable;
I learnt sharing my things here,
and grown to face my fears !
the fears of my society in which i live in,
I woke up after long time of my dreamin’ ;
Being a daughter is bigger than being a friend,
no matter how many years may pass for this trend,
But still this may never get support,
as we all got our emotional sides of lives to promote;
Returning back home sometimes i skip my tuitions,
maa keeps me scolding but my dadda helps me complete my portions,
portions of units we are told to learn,
as if they’ll help me in my life with a great turn;
Growing up i always had my feminine side,
A natural instinct of a divine guide;
A tendency to care for everyone i am connected to,
always adding some love and joy in their lives and their minds into;
More than just a child, i became their friend,
helping them emotionally, helping their minds mend;
I love my family, i know they’ll send,
all the love and support I’d always require in the end;
(Girl) few years passed…
I have blossomed naturally into a girl now,
holding up my duties and education in the same bow;
I take care of my home, studying a lot for my future,
acting consistent in striving too much as if i am an assigned plow;
A plow given a task of planting few seeds,
the seeds of my own future where my opportunity succeeds;
soon I’ll gain my wings where my opportunities will grow,
then I’ll be able to contribute to my society, this world i trow;
But here i am constantly judged at some parts,
loosing all the hope I’ve developed from my arts;
men of this world take us for granted,
lusting over us, unfairness we ranted;
We don’t feel safe enough,
even while earning our own bread;
working in those posh places,
some men want our egos to be dead !
We aren’t compromising, we aren’t crying out loud;
Just because we don’t cry out loud,
it doesn’t mean we don’t hold a rainful cloud;
Our cries are silent whispering air in the breeze,
trying to seek our own smile and our own peace;
We aren’t compromising, we aren’t crying out loud,
those maniacs will cry who were laughing on us standing in crowds;
A small word for this society, I strive in;
Oh mighty people of this society,
Stop judging any suffered victim prior;
please get to know what really happened,
instead of calling a victim girl ” whore ” ;
Even we want to inspire,
wanting to dream higher;
To increase our own competence,
breaking free out of all the ignorance;
Some may ask being a girl why we “dare”,
We do “dare” because we do “care”;
for this world and future of many girls like us,
Uniting all the feminity is like no muss, no fuss for us!
Let’s see what more I’ll see in this life,
After investing this much on my career;
I may become myself’s ‘wife’ ,
this is called our “self love” when we say “NO” to the conventional Dominic knife;
(Woman)
Striving too much has paid off to me,
when i joined a fine job in my city, i glee;
Working being a woman adds stars to the adult female glory,
adds value to me in this feminine side of story;
I am not a girl anymore,
looking at the sea standing at the shore;
I am a grown up woman now,
thriving in the oceans spreading my lore;
Now i feel better, now i feel the best,
after flying away struggling outside of my nest;
after facing all the negativity and toxic ones,
today i can say that finally god has blest;
My role as a woman has taught me to never say ‘NO’ ;
even when this world stops you,
Just put on a smile and start, GO !!!
Grow, no one’s here stopping you
like those old time,
this is your path, this is your way,
to teach this world your own rhymes;
No boundaries anymore,
No strings hardly attached;
No preset norms and insecurities,
just show them all that you are finally hatched;
From a child to this day to an adult,
I’ve grown up to really understand;
I wasn’t born insecure but was taught to be one,
trust me this is coming from a feminity firsthand;
Life is never easy here, for a caring soul like me;
every binding craves me, splitting me into several parts, earning me my tea;
my tea of happiness and gratitude overall;
uses an ingredient of love and trust i emit for all;
I am also cheated, i am also failed,
Judged in every corner of this world,
not given a tiny chance for my truth to get prevailed;
I am a woman and i am proud to be,
the holder of my karma,
completing my cycle of moon,
every floud I learnt to spree;
No matter how bold we choose to die,
we can’t stop people for asking their “why” ;
doesn’t matter how loud we cry,
but are always seen as far inferior than a guy;
They say ” i need a guy in my life “,
My roles then will be driven being a wife;
a new role where I don’t know how to survive,
taking care being a queen of my own bee hive;
Being married i learnt to respect “HIM”,
was drowning in this new sea splitting for my new roles;
He supported me holding my hands taught me to swim;
encouraged me, forced me to work on my own goals;
People come ask me what is this magical turn,
I respected “Him” and he respected me in turn;
I am happy because he deserves everything my feminity has to provide,
always prioritized me, kept me on his own side;
No matter how angry i was,
No matter how many times i cried;
but every time i distanced him, he always came to me and tried;
tried to add some joy, dancing strange like a small toy;
I am always flattered,
watching him dance like a small boy;
it makes me happy, it makes me strong,
sharing love and respect out of our joy;
Today I am a lady,
a crazy mother of two,
my funny cute little ones,
who turned our home as “Zoo”
I am grateful for everything I have today,
My love, my little cupids, my home;
which always supported me for my goals,
and encouraged my purpose for future some day;
Today after playing my past roles,
I am also an inspiration;
An inspiration every woman craves,
A feminine beauty every girl behaves;
I am the author of this poem,
A poem of my life;
Showcasing tiny part of a “Her & Her Strive”;
I may die one day,
leaving this world growing old;
but my personality will never die,
which was always so bright and bold;
As a person I am a finite,
but my personality is always will be an Infinite;
My body may stop working me sleeping in dead;
But my thoughts will always be here waking a small girl in her bed;
From a little girl to a daughter then,
to th cute girl of my father then..
To a golden friend many have lost,
from a girl to a woman to a lady,
I’ll be here, in the hearts of my loved ones;
in their care and joy;
becoming a godess spreading some light of care and femininity in some other place in this world..
In New form, In New Life, In New turn, as a New Born !
(Credits)
A poem by Vivek Shaw.
-Out Of Love.
